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MULTIPLI-CITY: ALL BORN CREATIVE DREAMERS
By Tanuja Desai Hidier
South Asia Book Award acceptance speech, delivered by Tanuja Desai Hidier, award winner for Bombay Blues (Scholastic/Push, 2014), October 23, 2015, in Madison, Wisconsin.
Well, as Dimple Lala—my protagonist in
both Bombay Blues and Born Confused—would say:
FROCK!
Aaray waah! What a feeling!
I can’t tell you
how honored and happy I am to be here today, sharing this moment with such a
wonderful group of authors— congrats, Paula,
Padma, and Vivek—and celebrating with a
conferenceful of book lovers and people committed to the exploration of
cultures, identity, diversity, and the myriad ways in which we express these
things. Thank you to the South Asia Book Award committee—especially Rachel
Weiss, for her tireless work putting this all so gracefully together, and Kevin
King. Thank you to The South Asia National Outreach
Consortium: SANOC. And a shoutout to DJ Rekha, whose
parties Basement Bhangra and Mutiny, in the late 90s in New York City provided
a spark that partly set me off on my writing journey.
And a huge thank you to my very patient
husband Bernard, my little bachoodis Leela Marie and ZoĆ© Rani…and, especially, to the very special people who since
I was a child encouraged my writing path and whose own journey was the main
inspiration for me to want to get to know Bombay better: So this is for you, my Mommy-ji, Bapuji,
and dear, dear brother, Raj.
If as a child growing up in Wilbraham,
Massachusetts—home of Friendly’s ice-cream!—and even later, as a much! bigger
child in New York City, I could have imagined that such a thing as the South
Asia Book Award could exist, this kind of
celebration of diverse voices from the diaspora...
If my parents could have imagined it
in their first days in the USA, when they were the first from both sides of the
family to immigrate, where we were the only South Asians in our entire area,
and were regularly asked what ‘kind’ of Indian we were—Cherokee? Apache?...
Well, I guess I wouldn't have had so
much to write about later!
One of the reasons I wrote my first
novel, Born Confused [prequel to Bombay Blues] was to fill a hole
on my childhood bookshelf with an Indian-American heroine. Heroines.
Heroes. With an exploration of ‘brown’.
And, many years after that, one of the reasons I
recently wrote Bombay Blues was to move beyond, below the skin and a
strictly cultural framework.
With an exploration of ‘blue’: the mood,
the hue, the music.
The wild blue yonder.
And to
forge my own connection with this motherland—Bombay:
city of my mother’s birth, my brother’s, and the one where my parents met and
married in an out-of-caste love marriage. A metropolis American-born me barely
knew—yet that was, is, literally, in my blood.
The title Born Confused comes from the term
ABCD—one that in many ways clarified my writing path. It stands for American
Born Confused Desi—desi meaning a person with
roots in South Asia— and is a moniker South Asians ‘from’ South Asia have for
these second and now third generation Americans who are purportedly “confused”
about where they come from. Where their roots lie.
In fact, there are two versions of this
alphabet both quoted in Born Confused.
The first:
American Born Confused Desi Emigrated
From Gujarat House In Jersey Keeping Lots of Motels Named Omkarnath Patel
Quickly Reaching Success Through Underhanded Vicious Ways Xenophobic Yet
Zestful.
And:
American Born Confused Desi Emigrated
From Gujarat House In Jersey Kids Learning Medicine Now Owning Property Quite
Reasonable Salary Two Uncles Visiting White Xenophobic Yet
Zestful.
So… zestful, I’ll take! But I have yet
to meet an Omkarnath Patel. If there’s one in the room tonight, please make
yourself known!
What I wanted to do through my character
Dimple, across both books, is turn that C for Confused to a C for Creative.
American Born Creative Desi.
This seemed to me to be a more accurate
description of the South Asians who peopled my world—the ones I met in New York
City, in the thriving music and arts scene there, but also the ones in my own
home. These flesh-and-blood humans who were in fact shaping and creating the
culture as they went along. As we went along. Like so
many of the people who are in this room tonight!
It seemed to embody the idea that this
Neither Here Nor There space is, in fact, a You Are Here.
A viable identity, a truth in its own
right.
A WE are here.
And…now…here we are!
A hyphenated identity—well, we are all of multiply hyphenated
identities, if you go far back enough (for example, Latin-American,
Indo-Chinese, Afro-Caribbean). But not only culturally: As well as in the sense
of being composed of many parts we often struggle to bring together. Double,
triple lives we strive to balance, harmonize (for example, having one life
outside of the home, one in it, in terms of society, sexuality, family,
whatever it may be). We as humans are always-evolving jigsaws, constantly
fitting the pieces together, making and unmaking and remaking ourselves….
And this hyphenated identity, I’ve come
to realize, doesn't mean that you're 50-50, half of each, not quite either.
You can be 100-100.
200-200!
Zero!
INFINITE.
The city we all live as humans is
MULTIPLICITY.
A hyphen doesn't have to be a border: It
can also be a bridge.
It can also be a bridge.
And it’s on the bridge—
In the blur—
The in-between—-
Where life—the journey—truly occurs.
Events shape this journey. This history.
Herstory. People do, grand actions to little ones, too. But language does as
well: Language shapes history. Imagination makes reality. We can dream things into being,
speak them into being. Write, debate, discuss—read them into being. And
it is wonderful that more and more voices are being heard and
celebrated—because only then can we come close to representing the diversity
and richness of human experience, to even approximating a kind of truth:
By revealing and reveling in our
multidimensional selves.
Because there are innumerable, untold (only
some told) ways to be South Asian. Male. Female. Human.
Our stories are our arsenal, our fuel.
Our example:
Of other ways to be.
Alternatives.
Coulds.
Possibility.
We’re a powerful chorus when we bring
our voices together. When we make ourselves heard.
Because we are all, in fact, a wholly
different kind of ABCD: All Born Creative Dreamers. And we are creating,
scripting our own stories to realize our own dreams, expand and define our own
space.
Our own spacES.
And, all of you: Your stories ARE
stories. Never forget this.
Never underestimate the value of your
own story. Only you can tell it.
Never underestimate the power of your
own voice.
We need to hear it.
And thank you so, so very, very much for
giving me the opportunity to be here today. For your time.
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